When I was a junior in college I had my first nervous breakdown. Panic attacks ruled my days and the fear of leaving my dorm room was too much to handle. That time was some of the darkest days I have ever experienced. It made me question my will to live. If the rest of my life was going to be fear and panic dictating my every move then what was the point. During that time I was so blessed to have family and friends that picked me up and got me professional help. However, even with medication and counseling the panic attacks continued and my fear was a constant in my daily life. I missed out on a lot of life due to fear and my panic attacks or the fear of my panic attacks! It was a vicious cycle that went on for many years.

So where am I today? Well, I still struggle with panic attacks and anxiety that feels crippling most days. However, I refuse to let it steal my joy and the beauty that is all around me. Life is such a beautiful gift and I will not let my anxiety take it away from me. I decided to take each day as it comes and even if I'm terrified on the inside, I'm going to celebrate the day anyway! I'm going to live life with joy and gratitude because I only get one to live!

This blog is a place for me to share what brings me peace, gratitude, and joy! Such as styling my home and events, baking, picnics, back country roads, nature, family, and some of my favorite places around Texas and Oklahoma! I'll will also continue to share my journey with anxiety and hopefully encourage you in whatever journey you are on.